No, the life that you have led is

not going to bring you

to any sort of floral catharsis, even if

it is your dreaming will, where you

take steps into a grassy

ledge and descend into the nearby

beach, where flowers wash

over the attendants of

a funeral.  you life will wake you

up before you get there

and then it will rain and

snow and flowers will stop existing,

there will only be sea lizards

climbing into your eyes.